Haven't Yet Found My Way

[Abbey]

Mystik, ... I remember thinking the same thing... damn him... and being so down on myself about not being able to get out of the funk on my own. Hon... once the brain chemicals start to work against you... t'ain't nothing you can do but get help and set them back on the right path.

I too was angry, at the sitch, myself for not being able to be stronger, my body for giving out on me, my genetics for being disposed to a depression I CLEARLY felt was beneath me. I got my butt kicked... and finally stopped to realize HE did this to me. Just like HE did what he did to you. Getting help is the brave thing to do, ... believe me. Now being out of this mess that, I"m quite encouraged at the people who've approached me and said: How in the hell did you do it? I couldn't have.

Point being the people on this board are so much stronger than we realize or give ourselves credit for. Seeking help IS the thing to do, the brave thing to do. Yeah, you may feel like a failure but I tell you... once the dust settles, you'll go HEY... IIIII survived! And you will be so incredibly sent into awe by it. You just have to get to that stage. I realize it does feel like you SHOULD do this or that... but once you get past this mysterious stage ... you'll realize that you've done SOOOO much to be proud of. Reach that hand out, it's the first step.

*hugs*
Abs