One less-
i can completely relate, i have been with my husband's family on holidays too mine lives far away. i struggle, as a mom, with you to handle this with my son. it makes me feel like i have nothing to offer him sometimes. Stay home with me, by myself for the holiday, or go with my husband and be around cousins,aunts, uncles, and grandparents. someone suggested to me volunteering at a soup kitchen. i might try to do that. i am sorry that you are going through this too.

Sandi-
Thanks for trying to answer my question. You are right, this is not the person i married, and there have been so many times in the past 6 months that i wish that i never had married him. my counselor has told me don't try to make sense of the irrational, and that is how he is acting.