Thanks for spacing the paragraphs... makes my life much easier
Quote: I'm trying hard to get there. I need to protect myself from being hurt.
You cannot protect yourself from hurt. Well, you can but it is at the price of shutting yourself from human contact and isolating you in a cocoon where nothing can hurt you, it is true, but love cannot enter...
The only thing you can do is to consciously decide whether you want to open yourself to the possibility of love, and with it the certainty of loss, or whether you do not dare be vulnerable again... Loss (through death, distance or divorce...) comes with life.
But security gained by closing one's self off is a false security. Because you can close your eyes to life, but life goes on around you and over you. Trying to go through life without being hurt is like trying to escape a truck running full speed towards you by keeping your eyes closely shut and wishing it away...
Anyway... no more preaching. Have a nice day... I hope you will find the peace within yourself...
"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little"
Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"