Rachael, I think you should take a moment each day to look at the positives. Your mind starts wandering to the negatives and you just let it go and write them all down.
Quote: He told me he was going to his apt to shower and asked me to come over.
Seems to me he initiated this get together, even if it was simply going to his apartment.
Quote: we ML-very passionate I might add
Ummm, this seems to be pretty affectionate, if you ask me. Have you read Michelles Sex Starved Marriage. Often sex IS the way a man communicates. Often this is HOW they show you affection and love.
Quote: He is almost always willing to be with me
why don't you consider this "being wanted?"
I'm wondering if you let go of the fear, of the negatives and think about the positives, the distance between you might get smaller and smaller. What do you think? SO WHAT if you have been at it two years? Consider that a positive... I am two years further down this road, thank the Lord I'm not where I started.
I KNOW you don't want to be hurt, but you ARE hurting yourself every time you WHAT IF yourself instead of living in the moment and taking what you have and cherishing it.
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
