Ok H picked up S. Appologised for being late, but in a nice way at least. He was late for the barbecue he was going to (family friend), so nothing much to report. Basically was in and out in less than 2 minutes.
You know what I can't handle? Not knowing if there is OW or not. And I feel like , unless I disconnect from him, I will probably always wonder...and thats no way to live I'd end up insane...
I feel like I'm not like so many of the level headed people on this board who have this incredible ability to just accept whatevers happening, and go with the flow, even if it means knowing their H is with OW. Its one thing knowing you can't control their actions, but that doesnt mean you are not still hurt by their actions
Maybe I'm just not getting it right. This complete detachment thing. i kinda get it right when he's distant and offish, and away alot. But when he starts being all nice, and talks to me like we used to talk, I get all soft and squishy again. And THATS my downfall. So that's what I have to stop Somehow....
I'd end up insane...