I got an Iphone!! OMG--they are SOOO cool. I had been telling some of the people in my divorce and support care group that "now it's about YOU--do things for yourself and DON'T feel guilty".
The young guy had one of those phones, and afterwards I was getting him to show it to me--I'm like "DO NOT show me APPS!!".lol. Just show me what it is like to text and call, etc.
Of course he went waaay too fast for me. Then my neighbor was showing me his iphone and went a little slower. Afterwards I spoke to my sister and she was like "GO GET ONE--I'll buy it for you for Xmas".
I have always had the most BASIC of cell phones--never even texted until this summer. H is very controlling in this area--hates when I text, etc.
So I took my own advice to treat yourself RIGHT and went and got one.
I am walking on eggshells--ugh. H was told by his L to take away my cell phone. He would FLIP if he knew I had this phone! And it is costing him a little extra each month.
Why does treating myself right make me feel so guilty?? I haven't gotten my hair cut at a salon in almost a year. H took away my credit card when he saw I bought myself a dress and a couple of BRAS! He would have a cow if he knew I get a pedicure every 3rd month or so.
What is wrong with me that I care about these things anymore??
I am going out to dinner tonight with a friend and I want to get out of guilt mode FAST--this also makes me feel guilty!! ugh!!
Wonder if I need some sort of therapy. I have been shamed for so long into thinking that any time I think of myself it is selfish and wrong. I will bring this up in my support group Sunday.
