It's been a little while, so here's the highlights reel:
End of July: Mr. A and I were divorced (final).
August-September: We were seeing each other a lot and I thought we were on the path to reconciliation. Mr. A even sort of moved back in!
First week of October: I got suspicious and asked Mr. A (by email) if he was seeing other women. If so, I told him, I don't want to see you anymore. He said, yep, I sure am. Couple days later we talked by phone and I said I wanted to talk in person. He said he'd have to check his schedule.
Second week of October (10/15): Mr. A snuck into the house to get his stuff so that he wouldn't have to see me, but he couldn't find it so he had to call and tell me he was there!
Third week of October (10/21): Mr. A called to tell me that he had lost his job and was very depressed. I was nice to him.
First week of November (11/3): Mr. A called me late one night like a million times in a row. I decided not to answer. Then he texted me something nasty, like "So I no longer exist to you, huh?"
Second week of November (11/11): Mr. A called me again a bunch of times yesterday evening around 9 p.m. I didn't answer. He then texted me "just want to talk". He texted again and I replied "Everything ok?" Yes, but he really wanted to talk to me. Then he texted again and called like crazy but I didn't answer. Finally I said "not tonight" but he still called a couple more times.
Not sure why I'm bothering to post, as I clearly know Mr. A is not treating me well. Just trying to sort things out, I guess. I had just started to get really angry with him over the past couple of weeks, but one kind word like his texts from last night still opens my heart right back up.
For me, regardless of what Mr. A does, he's easy to love. It's a lot easier to let him in than it is to shut him out. I wish we could just get it together...
