Looking for that book Sandi... I think I have to buy directly from author now. Are there any "pearls" from Book2 that you want to share in the meantime?
Now that I'm thinking back on that book, it was an E-book. I think that you can order both or just one. The most important IMHO, is the second book.
What I took away was that a woman gets addicted to the PEA, in the first EA. When that EA is over then she is craving those feelings again.(That is where you are right now.) So, if she doesn't refuse to guard herself, she will get into another EA or PA shortly again. Each time an A goes down, she loses a part of herself. I don't have the technical terms, but it's as if those feel good or in love feelings are shorted out. In order to find those feelings, she hops from one man to the next, thinking this time will work. It doesn't. Finally, all her feelings are shot and she not only "hits" rock bottom, but she stays there.
This is why I am very concerned about you. You don't care where the PEA comes from, how you get it......you just want it. The book describes everything you are experiencing and what the outcome will be,if you don't put an end to it.
I stayed up all night reading the two books. It scared the mess out of me! I give very much credit to it for guiding me back to my right mind.
Please order it on line so that you can begin reading it tonight.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!