There is a book (actually two small books) named "Womens Infidelity" by Michelle Langley. This plus the other things that were hitting me, was a huge enlightenment. It talks about 4 stages that a woman in an A goes through. Book 1 is about the first two stages. Book 2 is the last two. I think I ordered it from Amazon. If you can't get both book, then be sure to get book 2, b/c that is what really opened my eyes and made me realize I did not want to end up like that!
"What is best for my kids is best for me" Amor Fati Link to quotes: https://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2879712