I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned ..

[punkin]

Pei,

Yes, perhaps Eric is right and you needed that, BUT, I like to think that sometimes we get to shut down, quit being the strong one, the stable one, and just have a meltdown. We deserve it. For women, crying is a release that most men won't allow themselves, until they blow up inside. And I don't just mean body fluid dripping out of our eyes and nose by crying. I mean the cringing, brain numbing, hair pulling, abdominal cramping of letting out the pain we feel. Even if we've been at this awhile, we still need and should allow ourselves these moments. There are times I want to pick up the phone and call H so badly, even now, after so long a time. Comes with the territory, I guess.

Nice to have a tutu wearing, 'Rican cheerleader on the sidelines when the games get rough, isn't it?