It's not over till it's over right?

[gutwrenching]

first thing you need to do is remain calm. This will get easier as time goes on. I haven't read your whole sitch, just the last few days.

So...what to do.
1) Do not answer texts even with thanks for silly stuff like alarm. If he truly CARED if you got up, he'd be there, he doesn't. If he does, he is feeling guilty and he needs to process that guilt, not have you help him with it. Answer texts that matter in terms of your son

2) Time to GAL. You need to feel good about yourself which you should. You didn't walk, you are giving it an effort. You need to be the better option. Create some mystery. New clothes, perfume, hair style, new activities. YOu are busy, you are happy. If you have to fake it at first, ok...but eventually you need to get to a place where you are happy.

3) Find internal strength. You can grow into the strength.

4) Ever heard the phrase, distance makes the heart grow stronger? There are multiple meanings to that phrase for you...so do it. NC as much as possible. Stop caring what he does, start caring about how to make your like as fulfilling as possible and he will see and wonder why.