You can't be perfect. Yes, none of that was good. But you are a living breathing person, not a computer, emotions and stresses are going to play a part.
Hopefully by this evening he will have realized that you did realize what you had done and were trying to apologize.
Take care of yourself today.
{{{{{{Optimist}}}}}}}}
Glass is half full!
He snuggled, you and had a nice breakfast two days in a row!
Plus as Sage told me one time. Every mistake is a learning experience to build yourself to do even better from that point forward! I'm betting you don't let those things get you like that again.
Pam
"We must be willing to let go of the life we had planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us"
and had a nice breakfast two days in a row! 
