Beyond Depression..but still a losing battle?

[Lucky11too]

Today went well! I called H at 9 and he sounded in a great mood, got ready, and came over. S had a blast at the aquarium. He loved looking at all the fish and got a kick out of it when they looked back at him. At the beginning, S was very specific about holding both H's and my hand. It was super cute, and it felt like we were actually a family. By the end tho, when S started getting tired, it was all about mommy. H tried to hold his hand or hold him, but all he wanted was for me to hold him. I think moms and their sons do have more of an attachment, but it's only magnified in this case, b/c H has not been in his life too much. Luckily, H didn't seem to take too much offense to it. We came back in the afternoon and S fell asleep for his nap, so H and I had lunch and then H headed off to do some things that needed to be taken care of for the new place. We texted tonight about the day and S and stuff, so all positive stuff. I still have to find the happy medium of my reactions to him. I feel like gushing my love on him, but it's a fine line of reciprocating his feelings but not over doing it and pushing him away or "pursing". I look forward to the day when I can just love him and not have to worry about all the mind games.

So, H starts the meds tomorrow, so will see how it all goes from here. I read up on it and it says it take s a minimum of a week or two to feel any benefits, but 4 weeks or so to feel the full benefit. It will be interesting to see how these next few weeks go and how H reacts to the meds. I'm hoping it helps him, but I've also done enough research to know that sometimes a person reacts negatively until they find the right one. Hopefully this is the "right" one. A new journey begins, but it least seems to be on the right road now...