I am glad that you decided to take this step! It is a step FOR YOU!!! Good for you! I am thankful that City Girl and bluestar are here sharing their like experiences to help you through this!
I think that since taking this step you already sound a little more in control!
You can do this Mystik!!!
M48 H53 M16 T18 S16 D13 SS30 H drops bomb PA/8-30-09 H leaves 12-30-09 D filed by H 2-10 H asks to come home 4-11 Piecing
