Haven't Yet Found My Way

[Mystik]

The nurse called me back tonight. I talked to her a bit about my issues and what I'm dealing with, and what sorts of things I'm looking for. So I have an intake appointment next Wednesday at 1. She said they usually have patients start treatment the day after the intake appointment. At the intake they'll determine if I need full day or half day treatment, and what groups I'll participate in. It's mainly group therapy although you do have an individual counselor. She also said they'll go over my meds with me and they can monitor me for side effects if they make any changes to the medications.

RIght now I'm feeling ok, like I don't need extra help. I feel like just talking isn't going to make things better so why waste my time with going. But logically I know I've been in this place before, I know this false sense of security could leave at any time and I'll be back at square one so yes, it is worth the time. And yes, I am scared. Scared that I'll be told I'm as broken as I believe I am. Scared that I'll invest all this time and nothing will change anyway. Scared to death to let go of H.