I'v had a couple of days since the "argument" Things are better. She said she was afraid after that. Look, I know this is a first for her. She's definately in uncharted waters with this EA. Like Luke Skywalker to Vader, I can sense the conflict within. I think it's real. I can push her over the edge or..... or what? I know I can push her away, that's easy. The other thing (what) is what I'm trying to figure out. I'm gonna need time. She came back to our bed again and last night she took my arm and squeezed; I held her hand for a minute(s). I can't tell if it was just pity or as I'm hoping the slightest inkling of second thoughts about ending our M. But I'm going to continue DBing. No more ugliness, only attractiveness. No more moping, only upbeatness. No more doubt, only faith. No more dispair, only hope.
Me 53 XW 50 M 18 Years +2 S14 D19 Bomb 10-24-10 Served 1-27-11 Mediate 4-21-11 Civil D Final 6-2-11 No church anullment "A man is not finished when he is defeated, he is finished when he quits."
