InAPickle, thank you for your reply. I am bipolar & do take zoloft, but lately it doesn't seem to be working at all. I wish I could afford to talk to someone professionaly but unfortuatly I don't have the extra funds or insurance to help with this. I don't lay any of the blame with H as I can see and have realized that my actions and/or reactions have brought this; for example -- I took a job 100 miles from our home and have to stay in the city for 3 nights a week -- I honestly thought that I was being responsible in having found a job before I got layed off from the job I did have, but never considered that H would start feeling unappreciated, taken advantage of, and lonely. We have talked somewhat, but it seems to always lead to him getting angry at me & yelling -- although we did spend an entire day a few saturdays ago & felt we connected. Now it is back to he can't have me around & doesn't want to 'let me in emotionally' -- I truly want give him what he wants & needs, but it is also tearing me apart to hear the hate that he is feeling now...
