And when you really, really, really get down to it. I don't want the D. I wanted to work at making it better and until it's over and I'm actually divorced it's going to be difficult.
Change takes time. I definitely am not "The Me I Want To Be" yet.
Yes it does, but the D is happening and you can continue to hold your breath till your face turns blue or you can say "I don't want this but it is what it is and I'm going to make the best of the situation for myself and my family" That's maturity! How do you let go of all this anger? A few quickie sessions with a therapist, DB or otherwise isn't going to do that. You're deeply hurt and that screams across every post you type so how do you let go and move forward? C'mon, read "Healing Is A Choice", give it a try. It means sitting still, being a lone for a few evenings and reading...just you and the book. Try it, see where it goes. Btw, good job on not running over her for sale signs anymore, if I recall, you didn't do such a hot job the first time anyway!
