April, if you can afford it talk to a marriage councilor or call a DB coach at this site. I did the latter and my coach has helped me a great deal. She actually gives me things to look for in my spouse and helps me interpret her words and signals. She helped me set goals and strategies.
Get the book Divorce Remedy and read it through. Someone here has a list of do's and don't's - find it and follow it immediately.
I also went to my doctor and confided my situation to him. He prescribed some anti-depressents and they have also helped me get my head together, function at my job and take care of the kids and work toward my goals. I call them my "happy pills" - really I do.
Please don't stay in your "one room orison" I'll keep you in prayer.
PS> If you do get some medication, take regularly as prescribed and never go off them cold turkey.
Me 53 XW 50 M 18 Years +2 S14 D19 Bomb 10-24-10 Served 1-27-11 Mediate 4-21-11 Civil D Final 6-2-11 No church anullment "A man is not finished when he is defeated, he is finished when he quits."
