Beyond Depression..but still a losing battle?

[Lucky11too]

Those are actually really good points. Communication has not been one of my strong points, so hopefully that is something I/we can work on as we continue to move forward. I think I was afraid to say anything b/c I was so angry at the time and would have probably come off as attacking and demanding, despite my better intentions. Shutting down wasn't a great answer either, but at least it allowed me to hold my tongue...and for once, actually get miraculous results!!! As much as I wanted to go off on him, it wouldn't have helped, and would have only put us on the outs again. It definitely is a miracle tho. So H called (yes called, not text) this morning and wanted to have lunch w/ me. Despite a huge workload (with the holiday tomorrow), I agreed. I was still concerned about being "too nice" in response of what I thought had happened the previous day tho & still acted reserved. We met up at his new place, and when I got there, he gave me a big hug right in the middle. (He never really showed much PDA towards me at the old place!) Then we sat down and he proceeded to tell me that he ended up going to the brain Dr on Tuesday, but they couldn't see him until this morning, so he spent the rest of the day with S. So he went back this morning (50min appt) and the bottom line is they put him on an anti-depression/anti-anxiety medication b/c the dr felt that yes, he has stress in his life (don't we all), but that he is unable deal/cope with it on his own. I guess too he's been having very stressed filled dreams, so the dr said something about how it carries over to his sleep so that he cannot get a good nights sleep still. (I don't think I'm describing that very well, but you get the point). Obviously there are still no guarentees here, but I'm just estatic that he continues to make these small steps. Medication is still going to be tricky between confirming this is the right one for him, at the right dose, and then him sticking it out long enough to give it a chance to work & then continuing with it. As disappointed as I was at him for slipping back into his old ways, it was actually a blessing b/c it allowed him to see that too and finally take the next step & see the Dr! I was begining to be convinced that that would never happened. So i guess you just never know what is going to happen. Luckily it all worked out for the best this time, but I definitely have to learn to work on communicating better b/c i might not be so lucky next time!

So for tomorrow, since S is off from school and I'm off from work, we're going to have an outing day. I talked to H tonight and he's onboard, so we are going to take S to the acquarium tomorrow. My only concern is that H doesn't follow thru (too tired, doesn't feel well, etc...whatever the "usual" excuses), but I hope it does work out. I only told S that it was S and I that were going tho just incase (yes, it's good to be hopeful, but it's also smart to learn from the past so that S doesn't get hurt). But no matter, tomorrow will be a fun day, b/c I get to spend it with my fav little man! =)