Thanks for clarifying. It's hard to see from so close into it. He won't see his IC (who is a jerk anyway) so I fear it will take forever for him to find all his answers all by himself.
As far as me. I am as strong or stronger than I have ever been in my life. I can distance myself from the garbage and look from an eagle eye view. I'm better than I have been in a very long time with tons of friends and activities (he even commented that he doesn't have any friends anymore like I do; 'cause he's not the man they all knew.) I've lost 40lbs and go to the gym regularly; look great and feel great!
Originally Posted By: Truegritter
Are you willing to take him back in ANY condition?
This is the part that really bothers me. What kind of man am I getting back? I see the great guy I used to know peering out, but he's still not completely honest like he used to be and still "not all there"
My problem is judging how much reconciliation is OK at this stage and how much contact to have. Leaving him completely alone doesn't quite fit, but how much is too much and how much is not enough. It seems the more we are together the more I see the "old H". He seems to remember the way he used to behave; but I don't see enough of the behaviors towards me of appreciation. He says he's sorry he's screwed up everything, but still can't completely shake the fantasy dream of a "better life". Says he's afraid he'll always wonder what could have been with her. He's still confused, so the fog hasn't yet lifted completely.
