Moving Forward

[gutwrenching]

Thanks everyone...
Gr8...even a hang in there is probably sound advice right now

Cyrena - to answer your question, no. Why? TBH, for every M saving story like yours, I've heard/read another "made it far worse" story so we agreed on Retrouville instead. We haven't been yet because of the move and the schedule...but there is one in mid Jan in our area. Mistake? Don't know, what do you think?

Of course you are right on focusing more on me, detachment right, DB101. Lost Rabbit told me on the alt to drop the rope again...
Frustrating probably because this is the first time I've really had to think about all that in a while.

But I did go out for a run today at lunch (and without W which isn't the norm) and it made me feel a little better but not as much as I had hoped. But I did get it through my brain that if she chooses, which she might, to go back to a snake in the grass who (in my W's words) one woman will never be enough for...then she deserves the misery that comes with it. She will be stepping down if she does that, big time, to a man who has been unfaithful to his W many times and even had a fling going on the side while M and in an EA with my W. IF that happens, I don't want to be married to someone who makes those decisions and I will then step up in the world to someone else. But it would be a shame to make it this far for that to happen...

Addiction...boy is it ever. The more I read, hear, see...wow. And I don't know who has it worse in getting rid of the addiction...it might be harder on the almost LBS than the almost WAS while kicking the addiction. And my W has an addictive personality, so yes that concerns me.

Thanks again to all for the notes today. This forum isn't as lively and doesn't need to be normally...but today is the first time in a long, long time where I felt I really needed the boards...and I had DB friends come thru for me again!