I am so moved by your whole post, but this is the best part:
Quote: I am SO at peace that is unbelievable. The fear is gone and so is the anguish. I took the leap, I let go of the need for security and told him I will not stay in a R without trust. I may crash and burn, but it is a risk that I needed to take.
You may crash and burn or you may not, at least you know what "peace" feels like and as long as you have FELT it, it will come back, you will want it back.
