"Just b/c we don't have kids, it's still a marriage"...
Yeah we know. But you also say you are severely depressed, he'd be willing to have you killed, he avoids you (sometimes you say that and then you shed a new totally different detail, again, that paints a different picture altogether. Like I said, let's keep it simple).
SO back to earth, the m was a m. Yes. You almost always say it's hopeless but now you admit you wanted to save it. But you also say he was willing to have you killed and that he'd get a restraining order if you contact him (The one time thing with the L wasn't advice "to pursue". It was a one time probing attempt at solving property issues, and perhaps more, without L's but I have no idea how you approached your h. But it does not matter now).
What matters now is that you objectively review some of the upsides to getting free of this crazy relationship. I can't make heads or tails of your sitch in some ways b/c it changes often. If I make an assumption based on what YOU say, you'll toss in a new piece that refutes earlier posts. So I will stay focussed only on what I know is crazy or dangerous. And his threats, if that's what they were & as YOU say they are, then they're crazy and dangerous. IT's good to be out of THAT. That's all I can say for sure.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016
