WAW is ok with divorce

[BrokenInside]

What do I want?
I want her back. I want to make her fall in love with me again. I want her to believe that I can change and have changed. I want my children to have a stable home with parents that love each other and put them first. I want the opportunity to grow together and make up for lost years. I want to work on our problems and get closer as a result of all this.

I got some answers yesterday.

She still wants a divorce, but she does not know when she will be ready for it.

Emotionally she is still in love with OM but she said that she will end it because is not good for anyone involved.

She is still trying to understand why I behaved the way I did before she dropped the bomb. That is her only motivation to go to couples therapy.

She is afraid that I am mentally unstable and does not know what to expect from me from one day to the next. I do cry a lot and have a hard time handling my emotions. I was diagnosed with severe depression and I am taking Zoloft. I also take medication for ADHD and was previously diagnosed with OCD, but I am not taking medication for that.
I did tell her that no matter what I say, I will not kick her out of the house because I know she has no means of survival.
I am not leaving because I want to be close to my children and she does not want me to leave.
As far as GAL. I have started to exercise in the mornings (6 am to 7 am swimming) but I feel bad about it because I do not see my kids in the morning now.
She wants me to GAL. She is GAL herself. At this point I think I should push for separation and if she wants someone to take her of her that is not me, she should give the OM a try and see how that works out for her.