And I am getting tired of being the only one fighting for the connection time that is SO IMPORTANT TO HER. I feel like I am the only one who is trying to schedule/find that quality time.
Oh yes, this is what I'd wanted to comment on. Yes, I was in this place for many months after I realized how much trouble our M was in. Granted our circumstances were different than yours; although I was the one contemplating leaving and feeling attracted to another guy, I was also the one doing the majority of the 'work' to reconnect the M. (Still can't figure that one out) So, yes, I felt this for months so I know how wearing it can be. Especially when you've had so little sleep! That's when your mind really gets swirling, hey?
Anyways all I can say is to hang on and tough through this. Of course you have to stick with your integrity and not be chasing or let her use you, etc, but just pay attention to times when you feel resentment creeping in and ease up on yourself a bit. You don't have to do anything you don't want to do.
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
(Still can't figure that one out) So, yes, I felt this for months so I know how wearing it can be. Especially when you've had so little sleep! That's when your mind really gets swirling, hey?
