You are right Faith. And I think he has noticed since I let go (as much as I have been able to at this point). The last two times he tried to engage me in conversation, and I didn't bite, it hurt him.
The first time I was pleasant and smiled but was distracted and cut it short. The look of pain and confusion on his face, which he quickly hid, did not go unnoticed. The second time was when I put down the boundary of not talking to me about the D at work. That made him a little angry and he tried to take it out on me later in the day.
It has been essentially 2 weeks going on 3 since we have had any conversation. I suppose it doesn't seem very long at all except that he has never been able to go that long without talking to me. He was always the one that called in our relationship and was the constant gardener, especially in the past few years. It is such a weird feeling not hearing from him. It is not happiness or sadness, somewhere in the middle.
Thanks for the post. Sorry to hear you are struggling GW. I hope it gets better soon.
(Formerly blgp) Me-35 H-33 Married 4 yrs Together 9 yrs "Bomb" 8/1/10 Separated 8/6/10 D filed 10/21/10, on hold til 1/11
"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him about your life plans."
