Really sad tonight. My husband is officially moving out tomorrow. I don't know how in 7 months time my whole life has fallen apart. I know everyone on this website is in the same place or has been, but at the moment I feel so alone in this. He just can't seem to let the OW go. My hope is gone because at this point I just feel so betrayed. I almost think I would have been a better place if he had never tried to reconcile. Instead what I got was a half hearted attempt, that was completely on his terms, and involved multiple breaks of NC. If he did decide he wanted to R, how would I ever trust that this wouldn't happen again? How can he do this, walk out on his wife and son? I am just so sad. When I first found out about the affair I was so scared and full of anxiety. When I thought about us not making it I was physically sick. Now I am just so full of sadness. I know I am just rambling. I am just so sad.
