feelings as OW seems to be on way out

[forward]

Well, maybe this health crisis did more to mature X than I thought.

I got what I guess I'd regard as an "MLCish" apology. X did admit that he is thinking about things now. The "MLCish" apology means that it was couched in a way where it was like "You still seem angry and I am very ill and I wish you would...uh, well, 'forgiveness' is too strong of a word, but uh, for your own sake I wish you would accept that our marriage failed because there is still some tension."

He did acknowledge that basically all responsibility for D was on me, which was better than he used to do. I explained to him a number of things that I did w/D to help her when he was in the hospital; he seemed a little grateful. (a little)

After that it was coupled with some snapping and usual criticism--really some that was pretty nasty, and some dredging up of past.

I was clear that I wanted things to be collegial and that it is not fair to expect more because I am involved with someone else and am considering his feelings. X claimed he was glad that I was with someone else.

But X still seems to want very badly for me to interact with him in non-collegial way. Although I was nice to him, and sympathetic, and kind in many ways (according to him I am not), I will not open up to him or get into emotional topics.

I am not changing the way that I interact with him; the conversation upset me even as it was. I am glad that I got what is about the closest thing to an MLC apology that I could, but