when was script is not script

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Here is a question:

I am a poster for over a year, previous threads under i want to be part of the group.

after a year of seperation, no reconciliation, no divorce filed, how much do you take as what spouse is saying is script or just who he is?

asked h, when are you going to file, his response, i thought you did, mine no you want this you file. h response i will file tomorrow. weeks pass and no filing.

h wanted in my house, to get something he left behind, after a year, my response you don't know if it is there, it's gone, his response see that's why i don't want to be married to you, i can't wait till we are divorced.

so whath appens last night i dream of him, he confessed he slept with 5 girls, 2 in vegas, 2 in his truck and don't remember the other, he hugs me, i felt warmth, and someone chimed in as a dber, don't move so fast, make him work for you. yeah all a dream.

i can not stand i think of him, miss him, the memories, seeing him 2-3 times a day.

i'm content happy all day, smiling, joking laughing enjoying, then bewitching hours come, in the am for drop off/pick up, when d gets out of school in afternoon before lunch and then again at end of the day. my mood changes, i feel ugly, my smile fades.

i can not stand to look at him, talk to him, anything! i am disgusted to how immature he is, he goes skiing no regards for kids, he gambles, drinks, whatever his little heart desires.