FMV ... No, not too long! I need all the advice I can get. My head is so messed up I can't focus on the things I need to be doing, and keep making myself feel terrible. The age difference with the OM is really demoralizing... Both from what OM thinks of me (tho he says not an issue) and from the outside world looking at it.
Fantasy, yes... But the words he has said to me I keep repeating over and over in my head (love stuff). I did delete my screen shots of my most cherished, because I was afraid of kids finding and also realized I was getting obsessed.
Really sweet, wonderful things that I've never heard from my H.
Ugh... And me, sending pics from my cellphone. Only headshotd tho!
So... Sandi, yeah I guess you may a little right there. But part of it was my horror at it all. In truth, yes... I would like OM to chase after me. Not happening.
FMV... Did you and your H have SSM? We are in separate bedrooms... How long did it take you to become intimate?
The best case for all this is for me to reconnect w/ H... Which ironically I was doing more before freaking out about OM and going dark yesterday. I've already blown it today.
Crazy as it sounds, I was better w/H BEFORE I started trying to break it off w/ OM. Now I'm just acting like a crazy woman with everybody!!!
