Journalling:

Am working on myself to be accepting of anything that comes my way. Not getting upset if I plan something and it doesn`t work out.That includes no expectations whatsoever from H.

Keeping busy but not to avoid him.

He`s still hanging way back though.

Just very much fawning over the kids and yet minimal words with me.

No aggro, thank God, but sigh! this road is so long and tortuous and lonely.