Not able to concentrate on preparing for meeting tonight, or big event early tomorrow that I'm in charge of ....
This thing with OM feels horrible, like an addiction. And, it's not even HIM per se, it's the fantasy -- the interaction. Unfortunately, as we've become closer as friends I started to count on him more and more rather than developing REAL, LIVE relationships.
Ugh, isolated and lonely... Even with H in the house, I feel so lonely. It's been years since somebody held me in their arms, so I was willing to settle for cyber affection. In some ways, a PA would have been better than this...
