So..........my H is buying a house.

[handlingplanb]

I changed the name of my post today. I do hope my H finds peace and happiness. I do still love him with all my heart, and I want this for him.

With this, I also want peace for myself. I need to find peace for ME. This has been a VERY long journey for me with many false starts and stops, but I am sensing a shift within myself and think I can now move forward with ME.

I am not ready to get his divorce for him. I know it is what he wants - and he wants me to D him, but it's still not something I can do.

I have a lot of work to do. Time to get to it.