Not sure where to start or end? WAW? #4

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In all seriousness, I think anybody you responds at this point is woefully unqualified to provide constructive feedback in this situation. The important thing is that you learn from this in the end, but I'd discount the value of any free advice at this point.

Let's recap:

Multiple affairs, control issues down to and including which plastic spoon you use to stir a pot, hystrionics including but not limited to threatening suicide with a handgun.

When confronted with the reality of the financial support she can expect post divorce by a mediator, she attacks you (presumably the weak link) because... well the legal system and mediators aren't likely to budge.

Then an ego-supporting affair by yourself to help rebuild your "self" esteem.

In all seriousness, if posting here helps you vent, that's all well and good. I'd take any free, non-professional (and I mean hardened, seasoned professional) advice with a grain of salt at this point.

But.. it's all good. We all learn from our experiences.