November 9, 2009 was what I have called the "Hiroshima of my life".

It was the day I had to hear the words from someone else that my H was in a full blown PA. It confirmed what my gut knew but my head and heart could not believe to be true.

November 10, 2009 I went to the doctor, got medication, started my stress leave at work, went to see my IC for the first time, then went home... medicated myself and lay in a fetal position on the bathroom floor til I had to pull myself together when the kids came home.

I wasn't telling people in my life yet what was happening, so I came here. And Puppy Dog Tails and many others "held my hand" and somehow helped me pick myself up and find a way to get through. There are so many people to mention from my support system here but I don't want to start as I would hate to forget someone. I made special mention of Puppy because he played a crucial role for me in surviving that time. I am sad that he is not able to continue to do that for others here.

Since then, I have learned so much and grown in incredible ways that I never thought possible. I need to make special mention of someone else that made that possible. That someone is my dear brother, Gnosis. I know contact off the boards is "discouraged". Well, you know what? I am not exaggerating when I say that my ability to contact Gnosis in times of greatest need saved my life. He is a wise, compassionate, patient, very generous man. He can also swing a 2x4 like nobody I know and he knows I sure needed it sometimes. G... you are my brother and I will be eternally grateful for what you did for me. And, my dear Serenity... who when asked if she has a minute for me gives the same answer every time... "Always". You are a beautiful and precious woman.

All of you who have ever posted on my threads and/or communicated with me in the alt... you are deeply, deeply appreciated... more than I have words for. I just don't want to start naming names as I don't want to leave anyone out. I truly consider you family.

So today...

one year later...

I am at peace.

I feel joy.

I feel confident.

I have tremendous self worth.

I know what I deserve and I know I will never settle for less.

I am embracing life and seeing many gifts and blessings.

My kids are doing well.

Life is good.

So November 9, 2010 is a day of celebration!


HEEEEYYYYYYY..... I am gonna have my virtual housewarming party TONIGHT! Just thought of that now. grin I know it is short notice but what a great way to turn this day around!

Sooooooo....... it's party time my friends! Let's celebrate!

Anytime it is convenient for you, go ahead and post either here or in the alt that you are attending my party and I will respond.

It's a great day! grin