I have to admit something. Not been feeling like I want to try to save my M in the past day.

I think this was going to happen at some time in the M no matter what (the A). I am just glad the "bump" that led to this in the M wasn't the stress of kids. I don't know how I would have survived the fight. Hats off to those of you who have.

My H's character is weak even though I don't want to admit it. He can't be alone. He wouldn't survive. If he said he wanted to get back together today, I know nothing would have changed as he has not changed. He has blamed me for his problems for too long. He will always be unhappy, yet one of those people that always has a smile on his face in public. He will be unhappy because he relies on others for his happiness and self-validation.

I am recognizing the feeling of indifference in my toward my H. I don't even allow myself to feel anger toward him, just pity.

(Formerly blgp)
Me-35
H-33
Married 4 yrs
Together 9 yrs
"Bomb" 8/1/10
Separated 8/6/10
D filed 10/21/10, on hold til 1/11

"If you want to hear God laugh, tell Him about your life plans."