Welcome to divorcebusting.com. First off...you have my prayers. My heart goes out to you. You .... and your wife... have had too much. Your hearts need a lot of care and tenderness and flexibility. Forgiveness....and gentleness. You've both been drained sooo much.
Your wife will need your care and patience, even if you don't have it to give. If your counselor is not supportive of your goals and your marriage....you need a different counselor. you will need someone who nourishes you in this goal....and you will need DB supporters who nourish you in this goal. i will check in on you.
Seek out sandi2 and brandnewday, jeffthreebeans, mr bond....etc.
Since you said you prayed.....I will tell you there is a scriptural example in Hosea....maybe that will be comforting to you....
Reread DR MLC and depression chapters...... none of them give the whole picture for your situation, but pieces fit...and they talk about the long haul. It may be a long time, but sometimes it just clicks and people snap out of it. I pray it will be so for you.
sg
sg Love is PATIENT, love is KIND, LOVE never fails / DB since 2001
