yep-- it starts with GAL. It doesn't feel right at first but then it gets better. A body in motion tends to stay in motion.
You are stuck and I hope you know all of us are writing this out of concern, not to gang up on you or anything!
At this point, how does it get better? You might want to check out those books about abandonment that have been recommended. Journey from Abandonment to Healing is one, I think.
Time to DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT, Mystik, my DB friend!!!
me,34 exH,34 S,16 months S:3/31/09-left for OW started DBing 10/09 d final: sometime 10/10 current: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2022856&page=1 met in 2004
