thank you all so much for the advice smile i've been lost in self doubt and pity and just feeling an overwhelming sense of loss lately. It's amazing how you can be surrounded by people but feel so alone. I"m very glad i found this place, i have a lot of time these days so it's a good thing there is a lot of threads to read.. i'm going to educate myself and get myself through this. I know the next few months are going to be extremely hard and it's going to take every ounce of my energy to be able to concentrate on bettering myself for whatever the outcome may be. I'm hopeful that i'll get my husband back , but i'm also realistic that if i do find myself alone i need to be able to cope and be as happy as i can be and be able to move forward with my life.

I just hope that i can undo some of the damage i've done thus far, the emails mostly.. i can't help myself sometimes and i end up firing off a lengthy email to him trying to ask him to give us another shot. I realize now that i'm doing everything wrong and these actions are counter productive. I'll have to follow the advice posted in the replies and on the forums.

Thanks so much.. here's to a fresh start !


Me-41 H-34
T-9
M-8
10/21/10-BOMB
11/01/10-H moves out
01/27/12-H files

"Good memories tell you that your past was worth it, bad ones tell you that you were strong enough to go on"