I need to make a list of all the things I need to address in the email.
Obviously it would start with something like:
"Dear Husband:
I wish I could say these things to you face to face. I want you to know how sorry I am for hurting you, breaking the trust, betraying your love and I want you to know that I would do anything at all for to get another chance. I would do anything for a chance to rebuild the trust and prove myself to you.
I know you said I was trying to trap you in a loveless marriage when I asked you previously to go to marriage counseling with me. I know it's hard to believe, and I know I did horrible things, but I really do love you, and I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
I'm not looking for forgiveness now, just another chance. I know that if forgiveness ever comes, it won't come in days or weeks or months like I'd like it to.
I hope you will take this seriously and let me know if you ever change your mind. I couldn't just let you divorce me and never tell you how I feel and ask for another chance.
