putting my big girl panties on

[flowmom]

Well, I guess I am doing what so many women feel the need to do: I am wanting to "define the relationship". I guess it's partly out of self-protection. I've been reading about "booty call relationships"...and I think I'm in one. Apparently all the affection, etc can be part of that kind of relationship. I need to manage my feelings here because opening my heart is probably a bad idea. I don't think that Guitarist wants to use me or anything, but I shouldn't cultivate expectations of the emotional side developing much. It's an important time to tune into my intuition and feel out what's going on for me...and him.