Thanks again 25! I give you so much credit for making it through and divorce busting your own marriage!
You are very right, I am stuck, very stuck. I let H pull me right down with him. I'm probably further down than he is.....I'm going through a clinical depression because I was hoping and praying that my M would be reconciled by now.
I do know that I need to work on myself as far as PMA big time. It's just all of the mean things he has said and done to me over the past 2yrs. that I have my self esteem down to 0.
I am working just to get through the day, this depression thing really can take a person down to the pits. I need to take day by day. Where I was getting confused was the standing for my M. On rejoice ministries they tell you to pray and pray and no one knows but God which I believe can heal a hurting or dead M. And yes, she did move on as far as taking care of her children and having a life. But they also say you should tell the spouse that you have forgiven them and that you are sorry for the part you took in the M failing. Which I have done. But also to be there for them, because they are hurting big time. And on this site and in the book and says not to contact them. Also here like you said above that I need to do what I need to do as far as finances. On their site, it says that the Lord will provide and not to make them angry if they miss a payment of any kind.
I guess that's where all of my confusion comes in. Plus as far as I know to this day he hasn't cheated.
I know I have to move forward with my life, and like I said above I will and just take day by day.
