Sandi, Thank you so much for being here. This is my first morning of waking up to nothing.... SO glad to find a message from you! Feeling very empty!!! Need those PEA brain chemicals back... Even if just a text, it was wonderful to wake up to "Good morning love!"...yeah, sick I know but also showed me what Iwant from H/M.
I'm so grateful to have found a message from you this morning so I didn't do something stupid! I deleted everything from OM in the wee hours of the morning... The games where we met/ chat, the screensavers of special chat convos, his phone no. And other contact info. Even my sent mails to him that I'd re-read:(
Right now my husband knows nothing... Why hurt him? But also, how do I wake him up? Do you have a link to your story and how you got through this? I'd like the brain chemicals BACK! Or at least a way to understand them and get through withdrawals.. After years of depression, it felt good to feel good again. Dumping OM is only the first step... I need alot of work!!!
Thank you so much, it helps not to be alone in this. Where did everybody go?
