I can identify with what you are saying. Have you started a thread and told your story? If not, why don't you do that in Newcomers forum?

I did the same as you. I also was so lonely and depressed and had given up on romance.

There is another lady here on the board that went through the Internet stuff. You might want to check her thread under Newcomers. She calls herself SoAshamed.

As for getting the PEA some other way, I'm not sure exactly how you mean that. Are you directing that to your H?

It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!