Still needing some encouragement

[kissak]

My H sure does know how to manipulate me...or just how to get to me. WHY is he being so nice now?? Why will he stop and take the trash out now, want to bring me and the kids breakfast? Want to hug me??? Wishing for me to have a good day! UGH~ He is soooo ticking me off with his "nice" behaviour! Then he finally pulls the crap of wanting to sneak a peak, if you know what I mean...wanting sex! Ugh, ok, I threw his butt out because of that problem with other women and here he is doing it to me! And what I hated was that a part of me enjoyed him "wanting" me. BUT I told him NO way!

Now today he is wanting to know whats wrong with me, wanting me to talk to him, tell him whats up. All I have said is that there is nothing I feel like talking to him about. This is MY issue to deal with and i dont need his help at all. I just need for him to leave me alone!!

I had to just have a good cry last night. First good one i have had in 2 weeks. My gut told me yesterday that he was with someone. My daughter tried texting him yesterday and she said he wouldnt answer her. I just told her he was probably sleeping, but later he told her he had just left his phone in his truck. NOT likely, but ok it struck a nerve in me....I just cried and had to look into the mirror and tell myself "remember WHY you did what you did, why you threw him out in the first place, you deserve better"

Bad night for me, but I got it all out of my system for now. Hoping and praying for a good week!

Thanks for letting me vent!