cheated on, lied to, and now I am moving on

[awest1217]

Well going to be a crazy Monday. There was a bomb threat made at my school on Friday that said there would be a bomb on Monday. Now the psych in me knows that since there was a threat written, means more than likely it is not going to happen because the administration and police have had all weekend to search the building and also take precautions. I had one bomb threat a month my senior year of high school because students wanted to have an extra day off of school. It is kind of scary.

I was fine until last night as I look at S asleep and thought about all he has gone through already and thinking about what would happen if something happened to me. I text H and let him know what I would want him to do just in case (always good to plan). At school, they have a cop at every entrance along with two administrators. Also there is tape at every door with initials so they know if a do has been entered. Strange feeling.

The worst part is S didn't want to go to school today. He cried for 20 m inutes saying he wanted to stay home with mommy. I cried last night thinking of him if anything happened.

I have complete faith in my school and what will be happening. They are awesome people and my principal honestly lives for things like this. Meaning he is a security nut and will protect the school very well (the president has been here twice if that shows how safe we are). No worries, but wanted to vent a little before students show up because I have to be calm for them.

I do want to jsut have on record one other thing. The last two times H has had S, there was something I asked him to do and he didn't. Two times ago was when S got pink eye and H refused to put in the eye drops himself. He wanted me to do it. Then this past weekend, S has really chapped lips and so I have been putting some A&D on them. I asked H to put some on at nap time because S sucks on his blanket at nap and bed and I am figuring that is the problem. H didn't do that either. He said S didn't want him to so he didn't. I didn't say anything, but when did S become the boss. Lastly H text me yesterday about action figures on sale. I told him thank you, but those that he was talking about seem a little too old for S (he is only 3). H got really mad. I said thank you,b ut I feel they are too old. He got really defensive. I just text back that I already got S two presents (H knows about them already) and I am trying really hard not to overcompensate at christmas or get into a present war with H. I got him teh two toys and will get him a sled, and maybe a few other small things, but that is it. S has so many toys he doesn't use and the ones he likes the most are the happy meal ones so honestly...why waste it. S is happy and likes what he has why give him more.