I really have felt that rollercoaster this week. What with no gaurantees, it is tough. I honestly do feel though, that the longer this lasts, the better my chances are that he will come home. But only IF I don't revert to pursuing behavior. For now now I guess all I can do is focus on myself and my daughter.
I have decided that however, that this week I need to finish getting the finances in order. It is a high priority for protecting myself and has the added benefit of seeming to be a dose of reality for H. Also gives me a truly legitimate reason to talk to him.
