Irish, I haven't been here since the end of October. I am sorry that you are going through this. You are definitely in my prayers. The one thing that I realized is that this is not in my control. I can change my behavior until it becomes a habit and part of my nature but the rest of it requires supernatural intervention.
I am still grieving two years after the divorce was final and for four years since I received the ILYBNILWY speech. The thing is that while most would think I am foolish for waiting, I am trusting higher powers rather than the world.
In my sitch, while I can't say I have had a lot of positives since all this started, I have to say that recently my "wife" called me and asked me for my opinion on something that pertained to her. I was stunned because she stopped valuing my opinion some time right before she left. I consider that as something fantastic and not to be dismissed casually. I consider it a gift from God and I am glad I remembered to thank Him for it.
Hang in there. Is your husband (and marriage) worth waiting for God to perform a miracle in your life?
Me:56, W:51 D:26,S:24,S:22 Married:18 Bomb 9/27/06 Separated 11/27/06 Divorced 10/6/08 Leaving it up to God
