Need insight

[angel61]

YOu are right. Sometimes we tend to hurts ourselves more by wanting to know, yet it also helps prepare us for the next step.

I however did not want H to think that I am totally a doormat, so when I had the chance I told him that if it were not for D, I would have agreed to an S, as I did not want to live my life in pain. I think that actually gave him some food for thought, that same day, I he talked to me and told me about the change in his relationship with his EA, in a sense , by saying she is not willing to be party to breaking us up. Lately, I noticed that their communications seem to emphasize friendhip, especially from the OW. Since then (4 days ago) till now, he has been acting really nice to me - taking me out to dinner, talking to me, even being physical, which we still seem to enjoy in spite of all this. I figure keeping the physical part going could keep H from being needy in that aspect.
To make sure I get something out of this, I do not do more than is needed to keep the household running. I make sure he does his part, and as much as I could, also make sure I get something out of our time together. I enjoy when I can!